Golden Moments
There are
moments in life that can best be described as “golden.” Times when life feels
perfect and all seems as it should be.
I do not know how to generate such
moments. They cannot be planned or forced. They simply happen spontaneously. I
would not even know how to begin to go about trying to create one; their
settings and circumstances are so varied that it is hard to pinpoint a precise
situation which would produce one. They have come when my house has been filled
with noise and confusion but also when it has been quiet and still. What stands
out as characterizing them all is sense of being in the moment and a feeling of
complete and utter contentment.
I do find that these moments
seem to be coming more often now than they did a few years ago when my house
and life were busy with the demands of six children. Time was always tight, and
I was constantly having to be thinking of what I needed to be doing next, and
an hour from now, and tomorrow. It seemed that if I let down for just one
minute, someone would go without being fed or changed or driven to an activity.
However, I do remember a day when my youngest child was past the diaper stage
and my oldest was just entering the chaotic teen years. On that day I wrote in
my journal, “My life is golden.” That feeling did not last long, but the memory
of it has.
I am surprised now, when my
children are all grown, that I am still very busy. The demands do not seem as urgent
as they did then, but the fringe of my consciousness still seems to be
constantly niggled by thoughts of things that need my attention. So I do not
think it is the change in my circumstances that has prompted the golden moments
to come more frequently. Rather I believe it is a change in me. I am now more
willing and able to quiet the demanding voices and simply be in the moment.

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